It is kind of hard to explain and I know that’s why my blog readership is almost cut in half. I will refrain from calling it a mental illness in lieu of calling it a severe case of melancholy. I basically just gave up on life and everything. Everything thing seemed so toilsome and tiresome – this struggle we all deal with as we go through in life. I knew it was just a matter of time before I would get better. It always happens that way, but I didn’t imagine it would take two months to find the light at the end of the tunnel.
Cutting Down on my Ice Cream…
“I am just going to get you one carton of ice cream instead of four when I buy your groceries,” mom told me yesterday afternoon on grocery day.
“Why?” I asked sheepishly.
“I am worried you are going to get diabetes,” mom replied.
I smiled. Mom keeps forgetting that I work and can just drive to the Piggly Wiggly to buy more ice cream. She means well, though. I would much rather have a mom that cared than one who didn’t.
It was a quiet night last night both at work and at home…
When I left the house last night for work, Maggie was on the den’s floor digging at the myriad of cooties she seems to have. Caramel was on the back of the couch looking out for any cats or other nefarious creatures.
“Night girls!” I said as I left and locked the door. “Sausage bicu9ts in the morning. Hold the fort down!”
DUI Checkpoint…
On the way to work last night I got caught in a DUI checkpoint.
“Sir?” the female officer asked. “Can I see your license and registration?”
I watched as she walked to her car and called in all my information. Now, there was a time in my lackadaisical approach to life that I wouldn’t have had all the items need to pass this checkpoint. My responsibility quotient has gone up incredibly as my age has increased. I always keep my license in the car along along with proof of insurance.
16 comments:
Well, some of us are still here. We knew - or at least hoped - you would be back blogging at some point. You don't owe us any explanation. I just want you to know that we wish you well no matter what.
I second Sharon. You don't owe anyone an explanation. I enjoy your writing and keeping up with your life. Your writing is a gift to anyone who happens to get to read it. Thank you.
I also, am glad you're back and I hope you just keep getting better and better!!
Well, some times we just need a little time to ourselves.
Said perfectly by Sharon. Glad you're back, though.
Our dog and cat scratch at "cooties" too. I think their skin is dry and itchy because it's winter. They also hang out in the warmest room in the house, which is right next to the furnace, We have a ranch house. We freeze in the bedroom and bake in the family room.
Although most of us (I hope) understand needing to take a break, instead of letting us panic and worry about your welfare, how about posting something telling us that you're taking a break?! That sure would have cut back on a lot of concern from your faithful readers and friends out here in the great land of blog!
Either way, you know we love ya!
Grannie
It is difficult to explain this side. I cared about you, worried about you. It would have been nice just to pop in and say you were taking a break.
At times I feel like what if I invest again in caring about you and again you just go *poof*.
In the end Andrew, take care of yourself and do what is best for you. That is what really matters.
you are correct in knowing when you need to take a break , but we all worried about you , but it is your business , it also shows you how many people love to read your blog , if you feel like that again just say takin a break be back soon
so have a nice day
enjoy work
:)
I agree with all of the above.
Share only if you feel the need.
Glad you are back :-)
If you feel the need to leave again, just let someone know.
Missed reading your blog.
I was really worried about you. You'd been gone before, but never for so long. I didn't want to think you'd disappeared forever. I'm really glad you're here.
There were a lot of us really concerned about you. We were so hopeful that you would be back soon. Needless to say, we are so glad you are back and feeling better.
You cracked me up about your mom meaning well.
It good to be in a place where DUI road blocks don't rattle you. :-)
Did George pass his drug test?
I don't think you owe anyone an explanation of your absence from blogland for a bit, Andrew. All of us go up and down in our lives and pop in and out of writing mode. It doesn't matter how many folks read your blog, what matters is that you do have folks here who truly care about you and want to see you continue doing well in life. Most folks would envy such a cheering section, you are blessed!
I smile when I read of you carrying on your life in a peaceful routine that you are content with. Really, that's what we all want in our lives. And I'm glad you have those furkids to come home to so you get the welcome you deserve after a long night at work! :-)
You are also right that you are blessed to have a mom who cares about you so much. She's a treasure! I'm sure my kids could relate some quirky mom stories about me too! :-))
As one person reading your blog, I find you to be a funny, down to earth, caring person, who has made monumental strides in healing yourself. I learned alot about standing up for oneself by your example. You changed so much about your life in the past year and did it well. You are entitled to some sorting out time and to feel tired and melancholy. You don't have to let us know when you are resting for a while but as we cheer your progress, we also care that you are well and as with any one we care about, silence makes us wonder if you are okay. Maybe posting a picture of one of your pups every so often during your next hiatus could be enough to say you are fine. No matter what, I hope you know lots of people are pulling for you.
Stay well and have some fun.
I think blogging is an optional activity - no one should feel under pressure to blog if they're not feeling like it. I notice my output dropped dramatically after T walked out on me. I'm just starting to get back to 'normal' blog output (normal for me) now, a couple of years later.
You don't owe anyone an explanation for your absence, but like so many others I'm really glad you're back! Your blog is always a pleasure to read.
Ok so yes you are entitled not to blog and it really is none of our business to know what you don't want us to BUT that being said, and you knowing how we care about you and what happens to you, would it have been so awful to just once in the two months you were gone to pop on and say I am ok just tired of you all? It really seemed like a long dead silence after reading every day. I don't expect you to have to keep us entertained, but it would be greatly appreciated it if you would just say something to let us know you are ok now go away.
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