Dad had to work really late tonight subbing for one of his co-pharmacists who called in so mom invited me to eat with her instead of fixing a plate of Helen’s food to bring to me. The fried pork cutlets were good if a tad on the salty side. Mom noticed it, too, and said something about it as well. Mom also had lots of goodies to give to me tonight. My arms were laden with new contacts, Maggie's/Caramel’s heartworm and flea medicines, dog food, toilet paper, and paper towels when I left the house.
“I am going to do something special just for you tomorrow,” mom said. “What do you want?”
“I would be thrilled to get two of Rodger’s barbeque sandwiches,” I replied excitedly about the cost prohibitive sandwiches.
Mom said she would bring them over late in the evening after I had gotten up.
Shoo! Anxiety! Delicately We Step…
I had the first real feelings of anxiety last night that I have had in months. At one point, I got so dizzy and muddled and then had to sit down behind the counter for thirty minutes. I am so praying this is not starting up again and I am not a very religious person and usually don’t pray. It is one of the scariest feelings I have ever had when you feel that mental loss of control coming on and you don’t have a bed to lie down upon to gather yourself.
2 comments:
its gonna be ok , just relax a little , take time for yourself , at least the store isnt crowded , that could make you more nervous. your doing so well again , maybe you can take a sick day and just relax with your dogs :) hope every thing is ok
Do you not have an 'emergency' stash of Klonopin to help with anxiety? You might think about that and carry a little pill box in your pocket to use if you feel that way. It helps a lot.
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